Although today is my actual birthday, Mom and Megan and Kayleigh and Savannah took me out to tea for an early birthday treat, since I was going to LA on my birthday. We went to the tea shop in Pleasanton and ate in the garden. The food was so beautiful, and we all had a great time visiting and giggling and drinking copious amounts of tea. Savannah and Kayleigh thought of a dozen different party themes and are planning a tea party of their own. They discovered peanut butter and marshmallow creme sandwiches. Kayleigh says they are hecka good.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Birthday Joys
Although today is my actual birthday, Mom and Megan and Kayleigh and Savannah took me out to tea for an early birthday treat, since I was going to LA on my birthday. We went to the tea shop in Pleasanton and ate in the garden. The food was so beautiful, and we all had a great time visiting and giggling and drinking copious amounts of tea. Savannah and Kayleigh thought of a dozen different party themes and are planning a tea party of their own. They discovered peanut butter and marshmallow creme sandwiches. Kayleigh says they are hecka good.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Packing and Purging
I am spending my birthday this year in LA with my sweetie. I am driving down to find a house. We found one that we love, and we hope we get it. Just in case, we are still looking at others, but our fingers are crossed. Finding the right house has been a challenge. We want to find a place we can make our home. A place that our kids will love, and that has all the amenities we are looking for. We love the town we are moving to, and are really looking forward to getting settled and being together as a family.
I don't know how people do these cross country moves, or international moves for that matter. I am really struggling to keep it all together and organized.
I am dying to do some artistic project, but between my recovering arm and being so busy, I just haven't had the time... My hope and goal is to get it all organized in the new house the first week of June, so I can start creating things in my new studio right away. I am really looking forward to a new space, organized and clean where I can spend HOURS making cool things. 6 more weeks and it will all be over.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Breezie Loo turns 3
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Easter Break and Touring through LA
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
working eight to cain't
I was reading that moving and changing jobs are two of the top 5 most stressful things a person can do... Lets add getting jammed up by your kids school mid semester for a inter district transfer cause you moved out of the district, even though you are in the same damn town and now they are going to kick your kids out if you don't get it from the other district yesterday... and oh yeah, let's add that the IRS pulls you for a random audit, and doesn't care that you just had surgery, that your records are deep in storage and some destroyed from flood damage caused by the rain a few weeks ago that ruined a box of tax records along with your irreplacable childhood photos... And let's also add coming home with your arm in a sling on the airport... extra screening and a pat down by homeland security, plus the drug sniffing dogs... coming home and having no ride from the airport, and your car still at the mechanics after 11 days... No car for the first two days you are home.... then you walk into your apartment to find it smells to high heaven like a litter box... the poor cats box has not been cleaned in 4 days, (there are 3 cats) you remember the lysol and all air freshner things are in storage, and you have no car to go get some... and on top of that, the windows take two arms to open... big sigh, another big sigh... small meltdown as your nostrils and eyes try to adjust to the horrible smell as you clean the cat box and light incense out of desperation. Now it is worse, cause your lungs burn from the incense, and the cat box has already destroyed your sense of smell.... You go into your room to discover that all 3 cats have a a WWF kitty wrestling championship on your bed and it is so covered with cat hair that you have an allergy and asthma attack. Perfect... the meds for that are packed in storage also.... so you sit out on the doorstep, wheezing, sneezing, coughing, eyes watering... and you look up and say to God... ' Bring it on... I'm not dead yet.... what more have ya got for me?"
I am waiting for my life to "get normal" again, and then I had a horrible realization.... this IS normal... well... I better start looking for ponies....
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Fish Market Saturday
Friday, February 5, 2010
Rainbows and hailstorms
Sunday, January 10, 2010
the long and foggy road
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Moving into the new year....
I will be commuting to LA a couple times a month helping him get his office ready. We are all very excited about the new adventure of living close to the beach. Zack is thinking he may want to go for Baseball again in high school down there. I support whatever my kids want to do. At least with Lacrosse down there, the weather is 70 degrees in the winter instead of the freezing cold we have here. I will be creating my non profit down there, and providing art with dumpster diverted materials to youth, elderly and veterans. I am very excited about getting the new program started, but sad to leave my students at Juvenile Hall, and my friends at the Juvenile Hall Auxiliary, the Hall Closet, the Contra Costa County Probation Department, the Martinez Art Gallery and all the people who have helped make my little art program a success.
There are many things I will miss about living in the Bay Area. So I decided to take the time to post a list of things I will miss with a photo. This is challenging, since my cameras are all broken and the computer is dead and this little notepad I have doesn't have a card reader... but I will figure it out somehow. I will persevere, and I shall overcome my obstacles.
One thing I will miss are the lovely rolling hills and the view of Mt. Diablo from highway 4 and 680. Especially the rare sight of them covered with snow like we had just before Christmas. I have only been to the top once, but I intend to take the kids up there before we leave and take a picture of the East Bay and the Carquinez Straits behind them. My goal is to post one thing a day I will miss until I leave. I may live in Orange County soon, but my heart and roots will always be here in Martinez and the East Bay.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Garage Sale SUCCESS!
Some of you know I have been struggling with a frozen shoulder for most of the year. I just found out that there is a significant tear in my rotator cuff, and I will probably need surgery. OK... that will happen after the first of the year. I can't be limited in my mobility before the holidays. I need to be able to do all my holiday baking and crafting. I am selling in 2 boutiques this year in November. At least they are letting me see the doctor I want, the same one who did my nephew and sister-in-law's surgeries. I will be glad to get the mobility back in my shoulder.
Check out this adorable little Breezy Bug I photographed in my front yard this morning... Invasive pests, they're here and they're hungry... Anyone heard those adds on the radio by the California agriculture department? They crack me up. Like them, Breezy never met a plant she didn't like... and enjoys picking flowers and pods and some of the last tomatoes.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Letting Go....
My mom and stepdad and my 2 year old niece have been living with us. Having a two year old around all the time takes me back to that person I used to be when my kids were two. I remember now how harassed I was when the boys were little. How hard it was with them so close in age, and how I couldn't wait for them to outgrow another difficult phase. Now they are both taller than me, and I look at them and wonder where the time went. In 6 years Kayleigh will be off to college. We will be empty nesters...
No one WANTS to spend time with me any more except Kayleigh. The boys are here, but usually in their room watching tv or on some technoligical gadgetry of some kind. I REFUSE to get my kids cell phones. Austin was the only senior to raise his hand in school when the teacher asked who didn't have a cell phone. He said he felt like a big DER... I say technology is turning us all into a bunch of unsociable idiots. I spend maybe 5 hours a week on the computer. I check email and once in a while post on my blog or facebook. I suppose if I had one of those newfangled phones with internet and all the apps, I would be on line more often. I am kind of thankful for my old jankey Nokia from 7 years ago. I have dropped it a hundred times and it still keeps working. But it also enables me to have a fairly technology free life. When I get in the car with my kids, we TALK... What a concept. We listen to Alice Radio in the morning sometimes, and laugh along to the crazy talk with Sara and Vinnie, but basically, it is great time for us to chat, about our lives, and things that we have going on. No one is texting friends of searching on their ipod. Family dinner nites are sacred in our house. Tuesday and every other Sunday is family dinner nite. All of us are here together around the table, eating, yelling, carrying on and just being a big ole loud blended family. I like to call us a modern day Waltons. We usually play a game after dinner, or watch a movie. Video games and internet are banned on family nites, and on weeknights in general for homework purposes. We only have one working computer that barely limps along, so the kids are allowed to use it only for homework. The boys tend to obsess on the games otherwise and spend a lot of time on x-box live and WOW if I don't monitor it.
SO what does all this babble have to do with loss... I guess as I look at it, I am seeing ways that I have lost... contact with my kids, and good friends. People I see rarely because we are "too busy with our lives". I have been cleaning out the studio and turning it from a crap collecting room to an actual studio. The plan is to have art friends over for regular get togethers and make things from all the cool stuff I have collected. I want to start collecting good memories with family and friends. My family and friends mean more to me than stuff... but in the face of so much loss over the years, I found myself collecting little things here and there, until I had a TON of things that filled my space, and life, but not my heart. They say that clutter is emotional baggage... I say it is more than that... For us altered artists, it is also stifled creativity. All these things we collect to one day use to make something cool and artsy. I had a room full of that. Now I am getting it to a place where I have a lot of supplies, but they are all organized, and put away in a way that I can use them to create, rather than collect them to maybe do something with one day...
Purging is hard for me. But nonetheless, I take a truckload to the store every week of things I am getting rid of. And adding another run every few weeks to the depot to get rid of the artsy stuff the closet can't use. I get a sense of freedom, a big release every time I get rid of something. And I am loving all the negative space in my house! It is like a Flashdance moment "What a feeling!" I am getting there, a little more every week.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Art Gallery Show
I get mixed feedback when I tell people what I do. Things like "Why do you want to work with 'those' kind of kids?" I say why not? It takes a certain type of person, to have passion for teaching, passion for art and creativity, and you have to really love kids, especially troubled teen agers. I can check yes to all the above. I have had many tell me they think I have found my calling. I don't know about that... but I do know, that in spite of having my time slot moved several times, and dealing with a lot of internal politics, I am NOT giving up on these kids or this program.
I need space for a reuse center. I want to provide a safe place for the kids to go "on the outs" as they call being outside of incarceration. A place that will help boost their self esteem, where they can work and earn some money and where they can connect with other artists to mentor them through their transitions. So many of these kids have nothing to go back to once they get out. With a 60% recidivism rate, the odds of rehabilitation are not in their favor. I think we need to spend more money on programs for these kids while they are still young and able to be rehabilitated, BEFORE they end up in prison. Programs like the one I am putting together, that connect them with mentors and positive role models. There is really nothing out there like it. I have the dream, the vision, the business plan, now I just need some money and the space to house it....
If anyone reading this knows of a space in Contra Costa County we could use for a while to house a very worthwhile program, please let me know....
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
A funny email today
IF MY BODY WERE A CAR.... If my body were a car, this is the time I would be thinking about trading it in for a newer model. I've got bumps and dents and scratches in my finish, and my paint job is getting a little dull. But that's not the worst of it. My headlights are out of focus, and it's especially hard to see things up close.My traction is not as graceful as it once was. I slip and slide and skid and bump into things even in the best of weather. My whitewalls are stained with varicose veins. It takes me hours to reach my maximum speed. My fuel rate burns inefficiently. But here's the worst of it -- Almost every time I sneeze, cough or laugh, either my radiator leaks or my exhaust backfires. CASH FOR CLUNKERS..........I QUALIFY
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Pizza Night
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Making Pizza
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Youth Poetry
No More!
You smile at the edge of sight,
and I turn to see you. No More!
You whisper between words,
and I hush to hear you. No More!
without you I am in darkness,
and the sun hides beneath the world.
No More! Will I ever be held down,
or be a menace to society. No More!
Monday, May 11, 2009
Mother's Day at Tilden Park
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Monday, May 4, 2009
Traveling for treasures
My brother is turning a small box truck into a motorhome, with a garage in the back for his son to haul his motorcycles. I am thinking... hmm... I would like one of those for myself... I could fill it with supplies, and take it around to all the art retreats around the country, sell stuff at the vendor nites, and have lots of space to store stuff, and a place to sleep at nite while traveling around. It is the new gypsy wagon. Can't you see it, with a cool painting on the sides that says the art gypsy... It gives me a lot of ideas...
Monday, March 9, 2009
Soul Collage
When you are done making them , you go around the room and everyone reads their own card in what is like a channeled space. Another person scribes what you say and reads it back to you. I found this lady Sandy the facilitator on meetups.com and she is wonderful. If you live in the Bay Area, I would recommend a trip to her workshop to make some cards, it was a wonderful experience. I took my mom on Saturday and we both had such a great time...

I loved the pregnant belly image, and I love clocks, I collect a lot of clock imagery. I had chosen the background of a firey star galaxy photo because I loved the colors. I put them together, and then went looking for a earth photo and found this one was perfect. I made the card in less that 5 minutes, the energy and creation if it just flowed. This is what I channeled: "I am the one who creates a new time in the world. I am pregnant with the possibilities of a new way of BEING on this planet. It is time to nurture and give birth to new ideas, taking the time to love ad grow while treating the planet with reverence and respect. My time is NOW. "
These cards I made on my second workshop day with my mother. Mom LOVED it, and had a lot of great information to share with everyone. Of course, she ROCKED at the channeling... but then she is a pro...
"I am the one who is drowning under the weight of unnecessary burdens. I add to these burdens by continually taking on more. The universe sends me tasks and challenges in small manageable pieces, and yet I let them overwhelm me. I need to be like the ice cube, and learn to float on top of the emotions, to stop fighting the current and let my life flow."

"I am the one who takes time to nurture herself. I am the one who moves effortlessly in a pain free body. I am grounded and centered when I make time for myself."
I have been trying to get the boys in my class to see beyond the images they are selecting... to find something different in the images that could make them something else entirely. I showed them these collages, and they were inspired. The light bulbs were popping on all over the room, and now I think they are getting it on a whole new level.
I love this medium... Any other Soul Collagers out there?
